Thursday, May 30, 2013
Celebrating Hubby's birthday
On 23 May, hubby & I had a date at Chef Icon which makes really delicious sandwiches and cakes. I personally love the New York Cheese Cake and hubby likes the Chocolate Trovana, so we had dinner there, and brought home a small Chocolate Trovana to celebrate with our little Kieran at Home Sweet Home.
This is our little happy family at the same place, same day, same birthday, with the same type of cake but one year apart. Look at how darling Kieran has changed over the one year! He's slimmer and more shuai now!
Kieran is a little darling. He's so obedient and clever lately. He's very curious and wants to poke his nose into everything. I was moving the clothes rack to another room and he insisted to help. But its dangerous for him to move it. I told him “危险啦！” He actually turned around to look at me and said “不会啦！” Huh! For a 19 month old, he can reply me like that! He is also starting to ask "Why?" although I'm not certain whether he's just saying Why for the sake of saying or he's really asking, but I was reading a book to him, and at one point, he asked "Why?". I explained the reason to him and he seemed to understand. Very proud of my little Kieran :)
Friday, May 24, 2013
In preparation of Baby Caitlin
A girl will not mind having too many clothes. Here's some of mummy's buys in preparation of Baby Caitlin. Even before she's born, she's very much loved and everyone's looking forward to hugging her. Baby is so blessed and fortunate!
We intended to have a personal family celebration and not going to make it a grand affair. Anyway, big crowds carry risks of virus infection and baby can't enjoy much at one month old. I want to see my pretty Caitlin wearing these cute and dainty clothes!
Baby fair is coming! Next Thurs at Expo. 30 May. Mummy is gearing up for some shopping time again! Hahaha...
List of things to buy:
For Kieran, I'm going to see if I can find car, crawl through tunnel, pants.
The orange one is cute and of good quality. Mummy and Papa chose this for baby Caitlin when shopping with Kieran at MBS. The pink one ballet like romper is a gift from Aunt Hannah. These are too big for newborns though and baby will have to wait until she's older to wear them. I guess 6 months?
Mummy bought these today at Vivocity, Pumpkin Patch, as they are having 30% off plus additional 10% off for member. I don't dare to buy too many as they are still expensive despite the discounts! I think baby can wear one of these set for her one month old celebration. Suitable for newborns.
Baby fair is coming! Next Thurs at Expo. 30 May. Mummy is gearing up for some shopping time again! Hahaha...
List of things to buy:
- any cute & cheap rompers/dresses/socks/caps/mittens
- pacifier (I think will intro pacifier this time. Kieran never took any and when I tried to give one to him at 3 months, he spit it out and gave me a "yuck! What's that?" expression)
- moses basket/small crib
- bath towels (pink)
- Baby birth announcement cards
- Sophie le giraffe (thinking of getting this for Caitlin) but may buy online...
- Peg perego P3 compact stroller... still thinking if we really should invest in this one
- bottle brush (Pigeon/NUK)
For Kieran, I'm going to see if I can find car, crawl through tunnel, pants.
Hubby's birthday
Hubby's birthday is just round the corner. I've got him a lovely gift and placed it on our bed, waiting for him to discover it by surprise.
I got him a Solvil Titus watch. Its slightly black stainless steel, battery operated watch which looks modern and sleek. It will look great on him and I believe this is the style he likes.
I got him Solvil Titus because it stands for "Together Forever" or 天長地久 and that is what we hope our love and relationship will be. And also because hubby is a sentimental person.
His current watch has been worn for quite some time and it went faulty at times, so I guess its time to get a new one. Besides, the only 2 things that hubby will truly shop for and enjoys shopping for are watches and shoes, besides the usual digital gadgets and smart phones. So I think he will appreciate a watch as a gift.
So here's the watch I got for him. Good taste right? Haha
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Kieran is no longer a baby
I suddenly realised, with some mixed feelings, that my little precious is no longer a baby now. He's a big grown boy!
Kieran weighs 10kg and is 81cm tall. He's a pleasant, mild tempered and happy boy.
He no longer has that chubby baby look. But of course he's still cute nevertheless. He's so smart, picking up words and sentences, and able to see logical relations between concepts. I'm amazed by how smart kids can be. His development verbal and reasoning wise is much more advanced than motor skills. Whenever he opens a book or see pictures or objects and animals he is interested in, he will talk and talk and talk, and wants the adults to explain these things to him. But when he goes to a playground which requires him to work those limbs and balancing skills, or when he sees older kids running around the playground or park, he looks in wonder and seems like he wants to join in but he's afraid because his balancing and motor skills isn't very good yet. I'm hoping to see my boy running around confidently, and climbing up and slide down the slide again and again. But before that, I'll be patient and wait for him to develop at his own pace.
At the playground again. Noticed that he has grown taller? He now prefers playing "cooking" than climbing up and down the slide and playing the see saw.
One of his favourite place is the library and he absolutely loves books although he really would only read for a while and then start running around and exploring the library which is an amazing new world to him. Haha. He loves to search for books, take them out of the shelves and bring them to me for me to read to him.
26 weeks pregnant
This is me at 26th week (6th month) of pregnancy.
Baby Caitlin is active and kicking me whenever I'm resting. My appetite is good. I'm experiencing some tiredness, and occasionally feels so sleepy that I just want to fall asleep but I can't as I have to care for little Kieran. So I just fought the Z monster and try my best for Kieran darling.
My ballooning belly. I am slim and small built and my tummy is rather small for a 6 months preggy. I have gained 6 kg so far.
Looking forward to baby Caitlin! I wonder whether she will have her Papa's eyes, nose, and teeth (which we will know at later stage...) as I wished.
My ballooning belly. I am slim and small built and my tummy is rather small for a 6 months preggy. I have gained 6 kg so far.
Looking forward to baby Caitlin! I wonder whether she will have her Papa's eyes, nose, and teeth (which we will know at later stage...) as I wished.
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Fever gone finally
I haven't been updating my blog because the past few days had been really difficult.
Dear precious Kieran was down with flu and had really high fever. He felt like a heat radiator when I hugged him to sleep. We sponged him, fed him panadol and nurofen as prescribed but the temperature continued to run high. Cough and runny nose too, disturbed him a great deal. He's cranky and sticky to mummy, and he wanted people to carry him and comfort him all the time. Seeing him so tired, unable to play and laugh like his active normal self made my heart ached.
I stayed over at my parents' place for the past few days as Kieran was unwell, I needed help especially with my ballooning tummy and tiredness due to pregnancy, and Hubby will be away for the weekend for retreat.
Sigh. It felt worse then confinement for the past few days. I missed the Robinsons sale. I couldn't meet my friends as arranged, and I couldn't leave him for long hours to go out for some me time. But I'm glad because actually staying at my parents' place is easier for child caring. Kieran is entertained throughout the day with lots of different people to talk to and play with, and he gets to go out and walk around the Neighbourhood. I think he likes it here better than being stuck with me at home all day.
Nowadays, I find it harder and harder to handle his needs. I can take care of the basic needs like showering, diaper changing, meals etc, but I reduced my time playing with him and reading to him, exploring picture books, drawing, and teaching him new things and concepts in books because I'm frequently so tired. I also couldn't bring him to the playground as often as I could before. My favourite activity now is to lie down, nurse him and play his soft toys with him. And I resorted to showing him videos and pictures on iPad as I'm too tired to do anything else with him. Usually I will wonder, oh gosh, it's only 3pm? What do I do with Kieran until dinner time?
Now he's sleeping soundly beside me. Fortunately. Today he is much better. He didn't have fever for the past 2 days, although he still has the runny nose and cough. The runny nose is getting better though.
Sometimes when I think about it, I find it pretty surreal. I'm now a soon to be mother of two children, a boy and a girl. God is kind to us. He knew I love to have a boy and Yilin wanted a girl. We were so blessed to have our small and happy family. And I'm so blessed to get help from my parents and parent in laws. Tiding through pregnancy with an active little toddler isn't easy! I'm so looking forward to the arrival of baby Caitlin. I saw more photo updates of my friends' second babies on Facebook. I thought I was pretty fast in having a second one. Others were even faster! The more I see those photos, the more I look forward to the day this little one arrives into our arms.
Baby caitlin is very active now, especially in the evening. Kieran and Caitlin were fighting even before she was born. While nursing Kieran, he accidentally pokes my tummy, and Caitlin would kick back at him. This is so interesting. I wish to see my two children interact soon!
I miss hubby so much. I miss my home too. Glad to move back tomorrow night although it also means I'll be on my own. I love the night time when hubby and I and little Kieran prepares for sleep. I'll brush Kieran's teeth, Yilin will lead our little prayer, and play with Kieran before tucking him into bed, I will nurse Kieran while daddy sings the "sleepy land" song which only mummy and papa knows how to sing.
I'm hungry again although I've eaten a lot in the evening. Well, I'm growing a baby in me! Time for snacks, and then to bed with my little precious darling.
Dear precious Kieran was down with flu and had really high fever. He felt like a heat radiator when I hugged him to sleep. We sponged him, fed him panadol and nurofen as prescribed but the temperature continued to run high. Cough and runny nose too, disturbed him a great deal. He's cranky and sticky to mummy, and he wanted people to carry him and comfort him all the time. Seeing him so tired, unable to play and laugh like his active normal self made my heart ached.
I stayed over at my parents' place for the past few days as Kieran was unwell, I needed help especially with my ballooning tummy and tiredness due to pregnancy, and Hubby will be away for the weekend for retreat.
Sigh. It felt worse then confinement for the past few days. I missed the Robinsons sale. I couldn't meet my friends as arranged, and I couldn't leave him for long hours to go out for some me time. But I'm glad because actually staying at my parents' place is easier for child caring. Kieran is entertained throughout the day with lots of different people to talk to and play with, and he gets to go out and walk around the Neighbourhood. I think he likes it here better than being stuck with me at home all day.
Nowadays, I find it harder and harder to handle his needs. I can take care of the basic needs like showering, diaper changing, meals etc, but I reduced my time playing with him and reading to him, exploring picture books, drawing, and teaching him new things and concepts in books because I'm frequently so tired. I also couldn't bring him to the playground as often as I could before. My favourite activity now is to lie down, nurse him and play his soft toys with him. And I resorted to showing him videos and pictures on iPad as I'm too tired to do anything else with him. Usually I will wonder, oh gosh, it's only 3pm? What do I do with Kieran until dinner time?
Now he's sleeping soundly beside me. Fortunately. Today he is much better. He didn't have fever for the past 2 days, although he still has the runny nose and cough. The runny nose is getting better though.
Sometimes when I think about it, I find it pretty surreal. I'm now a soon to be mother of two children, a boy and a girl. God is kind to us. He knew I love to have a boy and Yilin wanted a girl. We were so blessed to have our small and happy family. And I'm so blessed to get help from my parents and parent in laws. Tiding through pregnancy with an active little toddler isn't easy! I'm so looking forward to the arrival of baby Caitlin. I saw more photo updates of my friends' second babies on Facebook. I thought I was pretty fast in having a second one. Others were even faster! The more I see those photos, the more I look forward to the day this little one arrives into our arms.
Baby caitlin is very active now, especially in the evening. Kieran and Caitlin were fighting even before she was born. While nursing Kieran, he accidentally pokes my tummy, and Caitlin would kick back at him. This is so interesting. I wish to see my two children interact soon!
I miss hubby so much. I miss my home too. Glad to move back tomorrow night although it also means I'll be on my own. I love the night time when hubby and I and little Kieran prepares for sleep. I'll brush Kieran's teeth, Yilin will lead our little prayer, and play with Kieran before tucking him into bed, I will nurse Kieran while daddy sings the "sleepy land" song which only mummy and papa knows how to sing.
I'm hungry again although I've eaten a lot in the evening. Well, I'm growing a baby in me! Time for snacks, and then to bed with my little precious darling.
Sunday, May 12, 2013
face masks
I used a face mask today after dear Kieran obediently goes to sleep and doesn't disturb me. Felt good as hubby chats with me while I was resting with my masks on, and we talk about Iron man movie, some current issues, and discuss about our children and future plans etc.
My sis gave me a bottle of SK II as wedding gift and I thought it has turned bad because of the weird smell when I pad it onto my face. Chey, later I read online that actually it is supposed to smell this smelly! Maybe because of that Pitera thingy? Anyway, ppl say it gives them crystal clear skin. So I'm putting it on every day and night if I can remember. And will try to put on a face mask 2-3 times a week.
I put on Beauty Diary Arbutin whitening mask today. It was bought 1.5 years ago during my Taiwan trip with my parents (when I just discovered I was pregnant with Kieran). I bought a pack so I could use it until now coz at that time, when I had Kieran, dunno why I just have no energy or motivation to doll up or look good. Just heck care about appearance. I've got 2 other masks left and then I can use the new one I bought at SASA recently. Its Southern France Apricot masks. Got 10 of those and got discount at SASA. Got the Skinlite eye care masks too. I avoided collagen masks coz those of from marine fishes so there are limited choices, especially for eye masks. People seem to love collagen in eye masks. I actually went to Watson's and Guardian and SASA to compare the types of masks they have and the cost. I skipped TFS and Somang etc coz I know these places sell the mask slightly more expensive and I've tried these expensive masks before, actually not much difference compared to cheaper ones. So I'll save expensive masking to when I have more money lah. I tried on Vichy Thermal Aqua-gel moisturiser (I couldn't remember if its the light moisturiser or the aqua gel)... coz I was just browsing around and the salesgirl asked me to try. Its really good. I like the gel like texture, non oily, and my skin soaks it up and doesn't feel heavy. Too bad its $48. If there are some kind of Robinsons sale in the future, I'll look it up, but now, well, I'll better just save up for dear Yun Xi. Baby fair is coming soon and there are so many things that I want to buy for her!
My sis gave me a bottle of SK II as wedding gift and I thought it has turned bad because of the weird smell when I pad it onto my face. Chey, later I read online that actually it is supposed to smell this smelly! Maybe because of that Pitera thingy? Anyway, ppl say it gives them crystal clear skin. So I'm putting it on every day and night if I can remember. And will try to put on a face mask 2-3 times a week.
I put on Beauty Diary Arbutin whitening mask today. It was bought 1.5 years ago during my Taiwan trip with my parents (when I just discovered I was pregnant with Kieran). I bought a pack so I could use it until now coz at that time, when I had Kieran, dunno why I just have no energy or motivation to doll up or look good. Just heck care about appearance. I've got 2 other masks left and then I can use the new one I bought at SASA recently. Its Southern France Apricot masks. Got 10 of those and got discount at SASA. Got the Skinlite eye care masks too. I avoided collagen masks coz those of from marine fishes so there are limited choices, especially for eye masks. People seem to love collagen in eye masks. I actually went to Watson's and Guardian and SASA to compare the types of masks they have and the cost. I skipped TFS and Somang etc coz I know these places sell the mask slightly more expensive and I've tried these expensive masks before, actually not much difference compared to cheaper ones. So I'll save expensive masking to when I have more money lah. I tried on Vichy Thermal Aqua-gel moisturiser (I couldn't remember if its the light moisturiser or the aqua gel)... coz I was just browsing around and the salesgirl asked me to try. Its really good. I like the gel like texture, non oily, and my skin soaks it up and doesn't feel heavy. Too bad its $48. If there are some kind of Robinsons sale in the future, I'll look it up, but now, well, I'll better just save up for dear Yun Xi. Baby fair is coming soon and there are so many things that I want to buy for her!
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
爱美
I left Kieran with Parents in law today and went for lunch with my friends and window shop at Toa Payoh Kiddy Palace. Felt a rush to buy baby girl's items but I urged myself to wait. There's a big fair this month end to stock up on all the items! LOL
I initially wanted to buy either of these masks:
1. Origins Clear improvement Mask
2. Kiehl's Rare Earth clay mask
But they are around $50++ so I want to wait until I get samples to try out before buying.
Then I am doing online shopping on iHerb.com to get organic baby items, and I found this mask:
Queen Helene Mud Pack Masque with Natural English Clay. Cost only USD 3.83.
http://www.iherb.com/Queen-Helene-Mud-Pack-Masque-with-Natural-English-Clay-226-8-g-8-oz/18196
I think Watson's also carry Queene Helene but of course ordering from online is cheaper and I dunno whether Watson's carry this type. Well, those 2 more expensive is mud, this one cheaper is also mud, so I think I shall just spend my money on the cheaper mud. LOL. This is supposed to be the Mother's Day present from hubby to me. Well, I save him 50 bucks!
I also want to shop for some eye masks and moisturising lotion/toner like Hada Labo and moisturising facial masks. Time to go Watson's and Sasa to look around... My dad is coming to help me take care of Kieran tomorrow. Not sure whether he can allow me some time off? Fingers crossed! But Kieran is cranky lately and I can't bring him out far due to his rashes and discomfort. He also gets tired and sleepy easily these days. I think have to wait until he's better.
After coming home to finish up the housework, I have some time left to put on a hydrating mask. Feels good! I don't know if carrying a baby girl makes the mummy more beauty-conscious but I certainly did not feel this way when I was carrying Kieran. I couldn't even be bothered to wash face back then, don't even mention masking! Haha.
女人就是爱美！Moreover hubby said I'm looking haggard already. I must undo the haggardness!!!
I initially wanted to buy either of these masks:
1. Origins Clear improvement Mask
2. Kiehl's Rare Earth clay mask
But they are around $50++ so I want to wait until I get samples to try out before buying.
Then I am doing online shopping on iHerb.com to get organic baby items, and I found this mask:
Queen Helene Mud Pack Masque with Natural English Clay. Cost only USD 3.83.
http://www.iherb.com/Queen-Helene-Mud-Pack-Masque-with-Natural-English-Clay-226-8-g-8-oz/18196
I think Watson's also carry Queene Helene but of course ordering from online is cheaper and I dunno whether Watson's carry this type. Well, those 2 more expensive is mud, this one cheaper is also mud, so I think I shall just spend my money on the cheaper mud. LOL. This is supposed to be the Mother's Day present from hubby to me. Well, I save him 50 bucks!
I also want to shop for some eye masks and moisturising lotion/toner like Hada Labo and moisturising facial masks. Time to go Watson's and Sasa to look around... My dad is coming to help me take care of Kieran tomorrow. Not sure whether he can allow me some time off? Fingers crossed! But Kieran is cranky lately and I can't bring him out far due to his rashes and discomfort. He also gets tired and sleepy easily these days. I think have to wait until he's better.
After coming home to finish up the housework, I have some time left to put on a hydrating mask. Feels good! I don't know if carrying a baby girl makes the mummy more beauty-conscious but I certainly did not feel this way when I was carrying Kieran. I couldn't even be bothered to wash face back then, don't even mention masking! Haha.
女人就是爱美！Moreover hubby said I'm looking haggard already. I must undo the haggardness!!!
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Kieran has Roseola
We brought Kieran to Dr Ong EK, his paediatrician at Mount Alvernia.
Its not teething.
He ruled out UTI by doing a urine test. Kieran cannot pee by will yet so the nurse paste a urine bag at his penis to collect urine. Kieran was extremely pissed about that. Must be so uncomfortable!
Ruled out ear infection as he checked his ears.
Kieran had sore throat and doctor said it might be virus infection.
We were given panadol and nurofen (if he had very high fever), and doctor said high fever will not cause brain damage, its a myth. Well, I long suspected it is but better safe than sorry.
So that night when we brought Kieran home, he cried and cried and threw tantrums and kept calling "mummy! mummy!" until he nursed and cried himself to sleep. Yesterday night and today afternoon, the same happened. And while he's not sleeping, he's also super cranky and fussy and kept requesting for mummy or papa to play with or walk around with him. And no matter what we do, he will fuss.
When a child is sick, the parents suffer lots. Worries and exhaustion!
Tonight, I must be prepared for another difficult and long night. Sigh.
Parenting. This is the journey every parent must undergo.
There won't be help tomorrow. I hope hubby can stay home again like today. Although hubby was also sick and had to sleep most of the time and couldn't help all the time, his presence at home and his help in the morning when I'm most sleepy and "not myself" helps a lot. Gosh, I'm really not a morning person and I really hate waking up early and having to deal with my "work" immediately. And this "work" requires immediate attention, takes no excuses, and has high demands and standards.
Its not teething.
He ruled out UTI by doing a urine test. Kieran cannot pee by will yet so the nurse paste a urine bag at his penis to collect urine. Kieran was extremely pissed about that. Must be so uncomfortable!
Ruled out ear infection as he checked his ears.
Kieran had sore throat and doctor said it might be virus infection.
We were given panadol and nurofen (if he had very high fever), and doctor said high fever will not cause brain damage, its a myth. Well, I long suspected it is but better safe than sorry.
So that night when we brought Kieran home, he cried and cried and threw tantrums and kept calling "mummy! mummy!" until he nursed and cried himself to sleep. Yesterday night and today afternoon, the same happened. And while he's not sleeping, he's also super cranky and fussy and kept requesting for mummy or papa to play with or walk around with him. And no matter what we do, he will fuss.
When a child is sick, the parents suffer lots. Worries and exhaustion!
Tonight, I must be prepared for another difficult and long night. Sigh.
Parenting. This is the journey every parent must undergo.
There won't be help tomorrow. I hope hubby can stay home again like today. Although hubby was also sick and had to sleep most of the time and couldn't help all the time, his presence at home and his help in the morning when I'm most sleepy and "not myself" helps a lot. Gosh, I'm really not a morning person and I really hate waking up early and having to deal with my "work" immediately. And this "work" requires immediate attention, takes no excuses, and has high demands and standards.
Monday, May 6, 2013
Sleepless nights
I couldn't sleep due to worries and more worries again.
I wonder whether sending Kieran to childcare is necessary and whether it is of best arrangement for us and best interest of his.
Kieran has been having fever these few days. We were worried that its virus but we finally put it down to teething as he had been complaining of painful and itchy gums at the same time and he's apparently growing the molars. We saw big ones popping out. He's now asleep but his body feels hot. We gave him some panadol before he slept and I sponged him and Yilin fanned him while he slept just now. His body is still feverish warm but not as hot as just now.
I have a lot of worries. Not sure whether I can be a good mummy when I have both Yun Xi and Yun Xuan to care for, and not sure whether I will be able to spend enough time with them when I start work next year, and not certain of whether they will respect and listen to me when I discipline them because of the lack of time I spent with them.
Its really so tiring to lie awake and couldn't sleep, and the endless stream of worries just appears in my mind. And little Caitlin kicking away in my tummy. Sometimes she kicked so hard and I could feel her so low in my tummy (she enjoys kicking my bladder), that I wonder whether she will kick herself out of my tummy any time!
Its difficult being a human being. Our capabilities are limited and our time are limited. And we have countless responsibilities to fulfil.
I'm very much looking forward to my mom moving in to stay with me in August. I'm due in August, and I hope that when she's here, I can get better rest and more help around the house. I like my mom to be around coz she listens to me and won't interfere much when I discipline Kieran or do stuff in my house. In a way, I am queen of the house. If its my dad, he will want things his way too, otherwise he will nag loudly, and my mother in law has her own views on things and she doesn't like to ask me how I like things to be done in the house, and just automatically does it her way which I dislike. The grandparents don't like certain ways I deal with Kieran like permitting him to feed himself, letting him go diaperless and pee all over, etc. Honestly, I don't like it too. I hate the mess and the extra effort on me, but Kieran is my precious son, my only son, and if I must sacrifice and get a bit of backache and frustration and headache because of him, it's still perfectly worth it. I die die also want to toilet train him myself and let him learn to self feed before he goes to childcare. I don't want him to be bullied by teachers or be trained by unkind teachers. Teachers like kids who are trained. After all, if its not your child, most likely, you won't feel happy sacrificing much for him or her and the easier to care for is the child, the better you like him or her.
Hubby gave me a massage on my lower back and shoulder before he slept. Very grateful and hope I will have it every night! Such a big relieve for me! Aching all over after carrying a tummy and walking around all day. But its much better than first pregnancy. I only gained 4kg and I'm 6 months pregnant, due in 3-4 month's time! I was 39+kg and now I'm 44+kg. LOL. Many women will be envious of my weight. I hope I don't put on too much so that there won't be much to lose later on after childbirth.
As I can't sleep, I shall just ramble on... I have decided to choose 4 bedded when I deliver Caitlin. Because
1. I am an experienced breastfeeding mother so if nurse push baby to me at night, I won't be as clueless as I was with Yun Xuan at that time... Reminiscing those moments... I love it the moment nurse bring baby to me. I wish I could keep him with me for as long as possible. He's so lovely. Even if I was woken up half way through my sleep to feed him, I still feel super delighted see him, and even if its not feeding time, I kept going to the nursery to see him.
2. If everything goes well, I can be discharged on second day, so no point to stay in luxury room...
3. If its only one night, I guess the rest can handle Kieran well. Although if money permits, I'd rather hubby and Kieran stays with me in the hospital and with our new baby.
Only if I experience great pains due to tear again or I need emergency caesarean, then hubby will request hospital to transfer me to the single room ward.
I wonder whether sending Kieran to childcare is necessary and whether it is of best arrangement for us and best interest of his.
Kieran has been having fever these few days. We were worried that its virus but we finally put it down to teething as he had been complaining of painful and itchy gums at the same time and he's apparently growing the molars. We saw big ones popping out. He's now asleep but his body feels hot. We gave him some panadol before he slept and I sponged him and Yilin fanned him while he slept just now. His body is still feverish warm but not as hot as just now.
I have a lot of worries. Not sure whether I can be a good mummy when I have both Yun Xi and Yun Xuan to care for, and not sure whether I will be able to spend enough time with them when I start work next year, and not certain of whether they will respect and listen to me when I discipline them because of the lack of time I spent with them.
Its really so tiring to lie awake and couldn't sleep, and the endless stream of worries just appears in my mind. And little Caitlin kicking away in my tummy. Sometimes she kicked so hard and I could feel her so low in my tummy (she enjoys kicking my bladder), that I wonder whether she will kick herself out of my tummy any time!
Its difficult being a human being. Our capabilities are limited and our time are limited. And we have countless responsibilities to fulfil.
I'm very much looking forward to my mom moving in to stay with me in August. I'm due in August, and I hope that when she's here, I can get better rest and more help around the house. I like my mom to be around coz she listens to me and won't interfere much when I discipline Kieran or do stuff in my house. In a way, I am queen of the house. If its my dad, he will want things his way too, otherwise he will nag loudly, and my mother in law has her own views on things and she doesn't like to ask me how I like things to be done in the house, and just automatically does it her way which I dislike. The grandparents don't like certain ways I deal with Kieran like permitting him to feed himself, letting him go diaperless and pee all over, etc. Honestly, I don't like it too. I hate the mess and the extra effort on me, but Kieran is my precious son, my only son, and if I must sacrifice and get a bit of backache and frustration and headache because of him, it's still perfectly worth it. I die die also want to toilet train him myself and let him learn to self feed before he goes to childcare. I don't want him to be bullied by teachers or be trained by unkind teachers. Teachers like kids who are trained. After all, if its not your child, most likely, you won't feel happy sacrificing much for him or her and the easier to care for is the child, the better you like him or her.
Hubby gave me a massage on my lower back and shoulder before he slept. Very grateful and hope I will have it every night! Such a big relieve for me! Aching all over after carrying a tummy and walking around all day. But its much better than first pregnancy. I only gained 4kg and I'm 6 months pregnant, due in 3-4 month's time! I was 39+kg and now I'm 44+kg. LOL. Many women will be envious of my weight. I hope I don't put on too much so that there won't be much to lose later on after childbirth.
As I can't sleep, I shall just ramble on... I have decided to choose 4 bedded when I deliver Caitlin. Because
1. I am an experienced breastfeeding mother so if nurse push baby to me at night, I won't be as clueless as I was with Yun Xuan at that time... Reminiscing those moments... I love it the moment nurse bring baby to me. I wish I could keep him with me for as long as possible. He's so lovely. Even if I was woken up half way through my sleep to feed him, I still feel super delighted see him, and even if its not feeding time, I kept going to the nursery to see him.
2. If everything goes well, I can be discharged on second day, so no point to stay in luxury room...
3. If its only one night, I guess the rest can handle Kieran well. Although if money permits, I'd rather hubby and Kieran stays with me in the hospital and with our new baby.
Only if I experience great pains due to tear again or I need emergency caesarean, then hubby will request hospital to transfer me to the single room ward.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Amazing Day
Papa and mummy had an amazing day out with Kieran today.
We went for good food at Fortune Centre (Middle Road), went MBS for a walk, chill at the kopitiam while Kieran naps in his pram for one and a half hour, shop for and bought a super sweet baby girl dress romper for little Caitlin, went to Garden by the Bay where Kieran thoroughly enjoyed himself, had dinner at Millenia Walk, bought yummy bread as breakfast, and then brought Kieran to grandparents' house where he showered and had even more fun with loved ones!
A tiring day which had me ended up with achy legs but a happy mind.
People asked whether I am 3 months pregnant when I'm actually 6 months now. And they commented that I'm so thin. When I was with Kieran then, by this stage of pregnancy, I'm having water retention, with swollen fingers, feet and plump face. But now, I look as thin as I was before pregnancy, and today I even found my wedding ring being loose on my finger! LOL. I put it down to poverty. Yes poverty. LOL. No money to take cabs, no money to hire helper, no money to enjoy good life, and having to run around, prepare meals and take care of toddler, I end up walking a lot, exercising a lot, work out a lot, and hey presto, you get a slim and healthy body out of no money spent! So my advice is, mummies, if you want to slim down, don't go to slimming centres, psycho urself that you are poor and save all ur money in a fixed monthly savings, leaving so little for urself and force urself to walk and walk, take public transport, carry ur heavy toddler, go up buses, walk long distances to reach MRT, do all housework urself, and avoid the sinful food. I'm very into organic and healthy food, espeically now with babies to care for. We have a NTUC fairprice downstairs but I'd rather make the extra trip and spend extra money to go to SengKang Compasspoint mall to buy organic vegetables to cook for my family. A little bit of time, effort and money spent on health is worth all the while.
I'm very satisified with myself today and very happy with guai little Kieran and my darling hubby.
Hubby said he will buy skincare for me for Mother's Day gift. I will need a mud mask, toner and eye mask or cream definitely... I'm growing wrinkles! Time catches up! But I'm still happy. All the sacrifices are worth it. My heart just can't stop longing for my beloved baby while I'm doing facials so I seldom go for it. Suddenly facials don't feel pampering and seem like a waste of time! I regret purchasing the facial package that I did last time when I still have lots of free time and money to spend on myself. Now I usually only go there just to quickly use up the package, and I usually tell the person doing facial for me to chop chop finish as I'm rushing for something later on.
But I do find that now that I'm having a girl, I'm more into taking care of skin, make up, and frilly girly cutey stuff and I even like strawberry jam and the colour pink which I used to dislike! Haha. Looking forward to dressing up my little girl. Looking forward to seeing who she resembles this August when she will arrive onto this world... to our world :)
We went for good food at Fortune Centre (Middle Road), went MBS for a walk, chill at the kopitiam while Kieran naps in his pram for one and a half hour, shop for and bought a super sweet baby girl dress romper for little Caitlin, went to Garden by the Bay where Kieran thoroughly enjoyed himself, had dinner at Millenia Walk, bought yummy bread as breakfast, and then brought Kieran to grandparents' house where he showered and had even more fun with loved ones!
A tiring day which had me ended up with achy legs but a happy mind.
People asked whether I am 3 months pregnant when I'm actually 6 months now. And they commented that I'm so thin. When I was with Kieran then, by this stage of pregnancy, I'm having water retention, with swollen fingers, feet and plump face. But now, I look as thin as I was before pregnancy, and today I even found my wedding ring being loose on my finger! LOL. I put it down to poverty. Yes poverty. LOL. No money to take cabs, no money to hire helper, no money to enjoy good life, and having to run around, prepare meals and take care of toddler, I end up walking a lot, exercising a lot, work out a lot, and hey presto, you get a slim and healthy body out of no money spent! So my advice is, mummies, if you want to slim down, don't go to slimming centres, psycho urself that you are poor and save all ur money in a fixed monthly savings, leaving so little for urself and force urself to walk and walk, take public transport, carry ur heavy toddler, go up buses, walk long distances to reach MRT, do all housework urself, and avoid the sinful food. I'm very into organic and healthy food, espeically now with babies to care for. We have a NTUC fairprice downstairs but I'd rather make the extra trip and spend extra money to go to SengKang Compasspoint mall to buy organic vegetables to cook for my family. A little bit of time, effort and money spent on health is worth all the while.
I'm very satisified with myself today and very happy with guai little Kieran and my darling hubby.
Hubby said he will buy skincare for me for Mother's Day gift. I will need a mud mask, toner and eye mask or cream definitely... I'm growing wrinkles! Time catches up! But I'm still happy. All the sacrifices are worth it. My heart just can't stop longing for my beloved baby while I'm doing facials so I seldom go for it. Suddenly facials don't feel pampering and seem like a waste of time! I regret purchasing the facial package that I did last time when I still have lots of free time and money to spend on myself. Now I usually only go there just to quickly use up the package, and I usually tell the person doing facial for me to chop chop finish as I'm rushing for something later on.
But I do find that now that I'm having a girl, I'm more into taking care of skin, make up, and frilly girly cutey stuff and I even like strawberry jam and the colour pink which I used to dislike! Haha. Looking forward to dressing up my little girl. Looking forward to seeing who she resembles this August when she will arrive onto this world... to our world :)
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
6 months pregnant
Baby Caitlin is officially 6 months old in my tummy today. Her kicks are getting more frequent and more powerful.
I'm getting wrinkles. On my forehead and at the edges of my eyes. Crowfeet. Is that what you call them?
Maybe I should buy some nice skincare for myself but every time I pass by a skin care shop, I only glance at the price and I walk away. Really can't bear to spend it on skin care for myself. I tell myself that there must be cheaper options somewhere else. There are amazing toys to buy for Kieran and new stuff to get for Caitlin and need to save up for their future, etc etc...
Kieran is asleep now. Late late late nights is the only time I have to log online and do stuff. I just went to research for toys for Kieran. His grand aunt wants to get a slide for him and I'm thinking of getting a Dump truck toy for him. Found them on a website selling Little Tikes stuff.
I want to get some organic stuff for him too. I saw a photo shared on facebook about Johnson and Johnson's product having carcinogenic substances. That cast serious doubts on brands like Kodomo and Tollyjoy too. Personally, I don't like Tollyjoy because of some things I saw on forums. I'm thinking of changing all his stuff to organic and natural products.
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