I would like to blog about breastfeeding for the second time.
I would like to blog about handling a toddler and a baby.
But no time... no time...
I have so many things on my mind but when I look at my blog, I dunno which to write first really.
Sigh.
Caitlin is 3 months 24 days now and starting to hold her head up during tummy time. Stronger neck muscles. And these 2 weeks, she has been trying to talk to us all the time when we talk to her. I love her sweet little voice talking and talking and looking as if she really is communicating with me. She also attempted to flip over.
Kieran is 25 months and 16 days old. He's a darling. He's naughty like all toddler is. But his smile light up my day and he's activeness keeps my energy high. In other words, he makes me exhausted too. Toilet training fails. I wonder how I can train this little boy to pee in the toilet. Another sigh. He loves to do everything by himself now - Feeding, wearing shoes, washing his fruits, even when singing, he will tell us not to sing with him but let him sing himself. This mischievous but adorable and huggable little monkey! My dear love.
Oh and I'm constantly at fear of being pregnant with a number 3. I think if I kanna pregnancy again, I'm so gonna kill myself! Babies are darlings but the pregnancy journey is horrendously tiring and uncomfortable, and once they are born, they will be burden to everyone around us. Yes, I'm sorry I think that way but they definitely will become a burden. Imagine my parents and my mother in law can enjoy free time by themselves but they couldn't because they will have to help out when I have a newborn (coz there are 2 other kids around already and my hands will be full). And poor hubby will have to help out carrying baby, feeding baby, changing diaper, at night after a day of work. When I saw him yawning and taking care of baby number 2, I felt so sorry for him, but I couldn't help him because I was exhausted too. No no... this possibility is scary. Twice, I woke up with nightmares that I have a number 3 and once, I thought its real and my heart was pounding with fear. It took awhile for me to realise that it's a dream. Now I have some bloated feeling and sharp pain at lower abdomen and this makes me fear that its pregnancy signs. I just bought a pack of pregnancy test kit online. I'm gonna test regularly, just to be sure.
