Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Sia Yun Xi Caitlin is born on 2 August 2013

1 Aug 2013 (Thursday)

Morning, sent Kieran to school, came home to pack things to get ready for baby Caitlin's arrival. Feeling a little breathless. Contractions with backache and feeling of something pushing downwards.

1+pm brought Kieran home from school, got into taxi and went to my parents' place.

2+pm Kieran slept, I went to Toa Payoh to meet my friend to pass her something for her daughters and she passed me a rubber diaper changing mat that she don't need. Went to Kiddy palace to shop around and bought cup for Kieran.

3+pm visited gynaecologist Dr Ho at Mount Alvernia. Did baby heartbeat test and discovered contractions 3 times in 20 min. Nurse asked if I felt any pain. I told her only occasional backaches when tummy tightened during contractions.

4+pm Dr Ho checked and said I'm 4cm dilated. Better to admit now. Couldn't believe it. That was so sudden! I didnt expect to be admitted immediately. Called hubby, who was very calm, made payment, and then went up to delivery ward. Hubby will go home to bring my hospital bag here.

Just waited and waited at the delivery ward. Not much pain, just tummy tightening only.

6pm nurse ordered dinner. Dr Ho came and told me he will not break my water bag today as delivey is very fast after water bag is bursted because this is second child birth. He will let nature take its course and if my water bag don't break my next morning, he will break it and deliver baby.

I was very nervous because hubby wasn't with me. I wanted him to be here when I am in pain, or when I need an epidural. Very scared of the pain when the catheter is inserted.

7+pm hubby finally arrived. He ate dinner that he da bao, watched tv and chatted with me.

9+pm felt more pain as contractions gets more intense. The backache is tormenting. I had to take a deep breathe and bear with the pain whenever the contractions peaked. Still very not frequent though. 5-8min one contraction. I felt breatheless and a little bit nausea and want to vomit. Kept complaining that the room is hot and asked to turn down temperature but huby asked nurse and they said its centralised control but they can give us a fan. I asked for epidural. Very nervous and scared until the aneathesist asked me is this my first baby. I told him no, and I had epidural for first one too. But how can I not be frightened? Each time I use epidural its still pain leh.

Later that day, not sure what time, nurse came to check and say its only 5cm opened. Nurse suggested I sleep and relax.

So hubby and I slept, and hubby complained of hunger but all shops downstairs are closed, no choice but to drink milo (free supply of milo and coffee and tea outside the ward). The milo tastes yummy, thick and delicious. I only get to drink 2 cups before epidural is inserted. I don't dare to drink much, except sips of plain water in case I vomit. But I'm the lucky ones who don't get side effects from epidural.

2 August 2013 (Friday)

Early morning, I start to feel pain in my left thigh and top portion of my uterus. I thought the epidural effect has worn off and that surprised me because I didn't feel any pain for first child birth, so I was wondering why I did for this one. The nurse said doctor ordered 8.5-15 dosage for me and I'm on the lower dose. She increased it to 10 for me and she said I can't be on higher dosage because I need to feel the urge to push. I was really frightened as this was different from my first time. I didn't get to feel the "pushing" because I was on full dosage, completely no pain, no feel, and baby was out using vacuum. And this time, I actually will be feeling myself pushing baby out!

Some time later, Dr Ho came in and broke my water bag. I couldn't feel the pain of course.

And then we waited a few hours. Hubby said the contractions were at higher frequency now, every 3 min once. I feel super painful at the top of the uterus and thigh when contractions peak and I'm actually perspiring a little now. The nurse checked and said I'm fully dilated. Of course I'm fully dilated! I don't need her to tell me because I can feel something coming out of my below!

They informed Dr Ho and they started to prepare for delivery. I was trembling all over. I don't know whether I should push or just stay like that. So the senior nurse came and put my legs up and said its very good, they can see baby's head and asked me to take a deep breathe and push. I can feel baby coming out more and more. I push only when they told me to. At a certain stage, they told me to stop and asked Dr Ho in. The nurses were very nice and calm, thank goodness, and hubby was beside me all the while. I told him not to look where baby's coming out. I'm afraid that he may faint. Haha.

Then Dr Ho came and asked me to push, and with a few pushes, we heard little Caitlin's loud cry! I felt her head coming out totally. Cry and cry. This little girl cried more than Kieran when he was born, and her cries are loud but gentle, like a little cat's cries. So cute!

Then came the placenta delivery and the stitches which all went well and smoothly.

The nurse told me my delivery is very successful and fast, if only all deliveries could go as fast and smooth as mine. LOL

While I was in the ward last night, I heard an emergency bell went off, some scurrying of feet, and then minutes later, a woman was screaming in pain at the ward next to mine. Super loud. I was so glad I am on epidural!

Then I rested awhile in the delivery ward while I watied for the nurse to arrange for a bed for me. Baby was brought in for breastfeeding after cleaning and injection. She suckle very very well on first try, and I had lots of milk ready for her, thanks to her older brother who was breastfeeding until few months ago.

Then the rest is rest and bear with the episiotomy pain and feeding baby at the maternity ward.

Good for hubby coz he got 2 additional days extended for his leaves since there's Hari Raya and National Day Public holiday on the following week, in addition to his 5 working days paternity leave.

Good for grandparents coz Caitlin was born on 农历六月二十六 instead of within 农历七月 which is the month of Ghost Festival in Lunar calendar.

One of nurses told me there are many Chinese mothers inducing these few days because they want to avoid having baby born during the Ghost Festival which many Chinese believes is bad luck. But I think it doesn't matter lah. I'm not superstitious.

Not so good for me coz I want National Day baby leh, but never mind, as long as my baby is healthy and happy, I'm happy.

Love my little Caitlin!

3 days later, she was discharged with no jaundice, feeding well, and looking great!

Caitlin at Mount Alvernia Hospital

 Caitlin's first day at home

 Kieran Gor Gor & Caitlin Mei Mei

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Full term

Today, 1 Aug, baby Caitlin is finally full term. The waiting game begins now.

I wonder which date she will choose to arrive. Hehe. Excited!

I have an appointment with Dr Ho today. We'll be doing heart beat test. I'm eager to meet Caitlin and also because this heavy tummy is tiring me out. I wonder what her weight is now. My appetite is still good, and my tummy has been growing and growing even when she's close to full term. I guess appetite will decrease now that she has already grown to her appropriate size?

Symptoms at this stage:

  • Frequent peeing and moving of bowels
  • Increased vagina discharge. Sometimes it comes off as big lumps. 
  • Fuller breasts. I squeezed. Still got milk although I stopped breastfeeding few months back.
  • Insomnia but Kieran always managed to help me with this by making me too tired due to caring for him
  • Tiredness
  • Hunger (yes, now I still have cravings for food, usually in late afternoon)
  • Nausea. That's why I do not dare to eat too much at one go even though I'm hungry.
  • Tummy dropped much lower. When I sit down on my dining chair, my tummy touches my thigh. That's how low it is now! I guess Dr Ho will tell me baby is engaged today!
  • Felt baby Caitlin giving me awefully strong kicks at top of my uterus, near the lungs, and felt her hicups where my pelvic bones are. So I guess she is still in her wonderful head down position. Please stay that way, dear baby!

Kieran is at school. Today he didn't cry much. He looked rather happy to go to school but he cried because he wants mummy to accompany him inside. I guess he likes the activities, toys and games he gets to play there, and the songs they sing. Just now I peeped in and saw him eating his bread by himself. Very obedient. And later on, after going to the coffee shop for tea and walking back, I peeped in again and saw him concentrating on his construction toys. He loves to assemble and disassemble things. That explains why he loves lego so much. Happy to see that he's not crying and doing activities in school.

Last night, he rolled a sticker in his palm and told me he's making "tang yuan" and its tang yuan that cannot be eaten. I guessed his teacher must have taught him that and they must be playing play dough.

Kieran's physcial growth spurt must have ended, but he seemed to be having a brain growth spurt. Nowadays, he couldn't stop talking and couldn't stop asking "what is this?" and he kept wanting to "read book, read book". I just made him recite di zi gui this morning coz he woke up early and he can recite the zong xu. Very happy. I sent the video to hubby and his grand aunt. They'll be proud of him :)

Monday, July 29, 2013

36 weeks 4 days

I'm still eating a lot. Although I had some nausea and breathlessness, that doesn't stop me from eating and eating. Eager to know baby's weight and whether she has engaged during this Thurday's check up. I'll be able to hear her heart beat that day. We are doing a heart beat test for 20 min.

I've a feeling she might be engaged as I've a feeling of something pressing down whenever I get contractions. Frightening feeling coz it feels like baby is being squeezed out.

She has damn strong kicks n punches. Really painful sometimes. I kept video records of her movements. Must show it to her when she's older.

It is 3am + and I couldnt sleep due to hunger. Ate a swissroll & drank milk & took my supplements. I have this feeling that this is preparing me for the middle of the night feeding when Caitlin arrives.

Dreading the newborn caring phase all over again but then again I'm excited and looking forward to seeing baby Caitlin. I just dreamt of her yesterday. She looks gentle and sweet and peaceful. When oh when will she arrive? 1 August or 8 August or right on the EDD 22 Aug?

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Big baby?!

Oh my God!

I had this thought that baby was 2kg at 32 weeks but when I checked back again, I realised she's actually 1.6kg at 32 weeks!

At 32 weeks, she's 1.6kg, at 35 weeks she shoots up to 2.5kg. This means she grew 0.9kg in 3 weeks! At this rate, she'll be way past 3kg at full term! She'll be much heavier than Kieran at birth, and I'm still eating and eating and eating...

Her gor gor didn't reach 3kg at birth. I guess because that pregnancy wasn't easy. I vomited everyday for first 6 months, and I lost lots of weight. This time, I didn't vomit much. Only vomited max of 5 times in first trimester, not including the dreaded stomach flu which I contracted twice. Shudder...

Monday, July 22, 2013

35 weeks 5 days: sudden nausea

35 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Suddenly, this evening, I felt nausea and dizziness. Happened just before dinner.

I'm thankful that my mom is here to help. She helped to cook and shower Kieran, and I'm glad to hear Kieran happily running here and there, eating his dinner, eating his fruits and in very good mood playing with his toys although mummy couldn't be there to play with him. I was lying down all the while. I switched on Xin Jing to listen, and to let baby Caitlin listen, and lie down on bed, hoping the nauseating feeling will go away soon. My head was hurting too and I felt almost like I had in first trimester. I hope this won't happen again.

My mom helped me buy young coconut from Fairprice. Maybe I'll drink it tomorrow morning after Kieran goes to school.

Kieran is still not looking forward to school. Sigh. I hope one day he will tell me he wants to go to school and urge me to hurry up dress him and bring him to school to play with teachers and friends. His unwillingness to go to school also makes me reluctant to place him on longer hours.

I am initially interseted in Kinderland preschool as its near my parents' place. I had wanted to bring Kieran to the open house this Friday. But after finding out the school fees, I aborted the idea. It was $1600+ for term 4 last year. My goodness gracious! Its 3hr per day lesson with 1hr most likely used up for breakfast or lunch, and only 2 hr or less for actual lessons, and they want to charge this kind of price! I'd rather send Kieran to enrichment lessons like music and phonics with extra money.

This Thursday, I'm going out with friends. Leaving Kieran with my parents. I hope nothing will happen to Kieran. Pray hard!

And this Friday hubby suggested we can try to go to Circuit Road for dinner, as because of an accident, we couldn't go last week... But I think its kind of jinxed... not sure whether we should go. I'd rather keep Kieran safe and sound.

I'm not destined to enjoy anything...

Please let my son be safe. No illness and no injuries. That happens again and I'm really going to break down.

Friday, July 19, 2013

35 weeks

Baby Caitlin is 2.5kg at 35 weeks. Seen Dr Ho yesterday. He said baby is gaining weight steadily so its alright.

I should have eaten more red apples, should eat one everyday like how I do when I'm having Kieran so that baby will have good skin.

I should start to have young coconut juice now.

But very very tired. Nowadays too tired to do anything.

The toys are all over the floor and the baby room is not packed yet. No motivation these few days.

Feel like just taking a stroll somewhere. Feel like shopping at IKEA but then again, there isn't anything much to buy. Feel like having hubby accompanying me.

Having a lot of negative thoughts. Negativism is exhausting on the mind and spirit.

Looking forward to going out on a dinner outing with hubby without Kieran tomorrow. But not sure whether I'll be happy after eating the nice food, or if the food will be nice.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Kieran reciting Chinese Nursery Rhyme


I promised to upload Kieran's video of him reciting “三轮车跑得快”, so here it is. 
I tried to capture him saying 弟子规(总序)but he refused. So better luck next time!